Bottle up my emotions and throw the bottle into the sea, maybe one day someone will find them.

Today had the potential to be the best day in long time. I finally stepped out of my comfort zone and talked to someone I was afraid to talk to. I've been to the gym 4 days in a row and I love it. But now things are starting to build tension. 2 of my best friends have started to piss me off. The first friend is hitting on my guy and my best-closet-friends guy. I want to choke her. She makes my other friend feel like shit about what her life is like. NEWS FLASH!: your a spoiled b**** and I hate you right now. The other girl is starting to criticize my taste in guys and makes me constantly feel bad about myself. I want to leave. Take the people I care about away from this place and just be free to be anyone I wanted and have the friends that I want. I have so much anger right now I want to go for a run and sprint it out. But I can't. So for now I have to keep everything I feel locked up so I don't hurt anyone. But in my head, things are so much different and my life is the way I want it. This day had the potential to be the best day in a long time, and it turned out completely f*****d up.