Echoes, Silence, Patience, & grace

To hear the echoes of my past

to feel the silence of heart

the patience for the light

and the grace that i seem to lack

Sometimes the lies are too much

and i just wanna scream for the truth

but yet again i am denied the simple pleasure of any trust

i feel incapable of harboring the ability to accept things for what they are

for what people say is the truth

to me its all lies, all of it

in my mind i see no hope of the truth 

if i can ever fully trust someone with no holding back

if that one person can tell the absolute truth without and hint of deception

but is there every an absolute truth? does it even exist?

i don't think it does but buried underneath all of the little white lies and betrayal 

there is something more, something more powerful than absolute truth 

love

and when you don't believe in love and the love of people that is your biggest lie of all 

to yourself, love is everywhere but i cant feel it. only from the ones i call family and the place i call my home. but from the others around me the people who claim false love and truth, i never really believe them not 100%